I'm in a mood.
I shed a few tears over the Japanese house last night, then let it go.
Its sale is pending. It was snapped up once the price dropped--so low, but too high.
(I stopped tears quickly as P'tit Minou Deux said "Mama you're making me sad...")
The open, empty space. The Shinto temple aesthetic. It was lovely and unique.
I hope that whoever bought it will love it and live in it, not leave it as a university rental.
Here we are. Dreams aside. This is my home... la Maison des Minous.
And it is a sweet one. Well-insulated, wood-framed windows, trees all around, and the garden.
Also lovely and unique, in a warm, friendly, simple, crowded, cluttery way.
We built it from the ground up. (not really, but designed and watched it built)
Warm and friendly and simple is good. Crowded and cluttery, no.
I'm ready to part ways with Things. I want less of them. I crave open space.
I need fewer posessions than I own. I desire to break the emotional ties to them.
Expect to see progress on that Attic Avalance within the next week.
Tonight, I want everything to go.
I'm sorry you're sad at losing the house. You loved your little home once maybe you can learn to love it again. There are plusses of course, you don't have an extra loan to pay back, you still have your savings cushion, peace of mind and a roof over your head. Your MIL is a wise woman, routines can set you free, build them slowly, one habit at a time and before you know it you'll be getting far more done with seemingly very little effort, I know, I didn't believe it at first either. I've spent the last 9mths building new routines and it really has revolutionised my life. Feel free to ask if you're stuck for a place to start, I asked a friend who only does 30mins a day housework and her place looks great, she lives alone and is at work all day but it opened my eyes to new ways of doing things. As for the decluttering, it too seemed to be taking over my life, until I limited it to a maximum of 30mins per day. I found any longer than this and I just ended up staring at the stuff and not able to make any decisions. The really emotional stuff I found was easier to part with if I let go mentally first, it sounds crazy I know, but I really did picture it gone in my head and I found it much easier to get rid of when I went back to it. Sorry this has been a bit of an essay. Love your house, take care of it and it will take care of you. Hope you're feeling better. Good luck.
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